Little Voice #1

You made the choice to stay up too late.

You didn’t listen to me when I told you to turn off the solitaire and go to sleep.

I know you’re tired. Why wouldn’t you be? You got less than 6 hours of sleep. You know that you can’t function with less than 7 or 8.

So, you’ve got to make a choice today. Here are your options:

  1. Scrap your to do list and take a nap (seriously, there’s nothing that important on it anyway).
  2. Battle through and be exhausted and cranky all day.

Whatever choice you make, it’s time to own your mistake and stop complaining about it. It’s pointless, annoying, and serves no purpose.

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The reality of it all

I have bad teeth. I’ve written about them several times. The quickest synopsis can be found in The Tooth Fairy Owes Me. I’ve tried my best to be light hearted about all of it, trying to keep in mind that in the grand scheme of life, my problems are not that big of a deal.

But you know what? It’s not all fun and games and while humor can sometimes make a situation not seem so bad, there are other times when you just gotta  feed that beast and let the frustration and hurt run its course.

I had another appointment today and what I thought was going to happen didn’t happen. I was supposed to have a gum graft but the doctor said I wasn’t ready. I’m torn by this. I want to be done, but I also love the fact that he wants to make sure it’s done RIGHT.

I get it. I do. But I’m just so tired and frustrated and DONE.

  • I’m tired of my mouth being pulled every which way every 3-6 months.
  • I’m tired of the cost.
  • I’m tired of the time it takes.
  • I’m tired of how shot my nerves get immediately before, during, and immediately after.
  • I’m tired of having to explain to the kids that they need to be careful when they kiss me.
  • I’m tired of food running down my face because I can’t feel it.
  • I’m tired of the whole left side of my face, including my upper eyelid, being numb.
  • I’m tired of wishing my face would be numb again when the pain finally sets in.
  • I’m tired of the antibiotics.
  • I’m tired of the staining on my teeth from the prescription moutwash.
  • I’m tired of being careful of the stitches when I brush my teeth.
  • I’m tired of telling people “I’m hopefully almost done.”
  • I’m tired of backing out commitments because of appointments.
  • I’m tired of the drive to the oral surgeons office.
  • I’m tired of Emma asking me if she’ll have to have surgery when she goes to the dentist.
  • I’m tired of looking like I’ve been in a bar brawl for a week or two after surgery.
  • I’m tired of rinsing with salt water.
  • I’m tired of wondering whether all of this is going to be worth it or if I’ll have to do it all again in 5 years time.
  • I’m tired of worrying about every ache, pain and discomfort in my mouth.
  • I’m tired of getting into a fitness groove only to have derailed for 2-5 days.
  • I’m tired of having shots of novicaine in my mouth.
  • I’m tired of having to get more shots of novicaine in my mouth because the first shots weren’t enough.
  • I’m tired of making sure I have enough soft foods in the house.
  • I’m tired of realizing too late that I’m not ready for harder foods.

That’s it. No happy go lucky silver lining. No rose colored glasses. No jokes to make it all better.

I’m tired and frustrated, and today I’m going to let myself feel that.

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I love ME!

We are offically back from vacation. The laundry is done, the to-do list is updated, and I still need to download the pictures. Expect a vacation recap sometime later this week.

Don’t pretend like you haven’t been sitting at home waiting for me to write it. I know you have. Admit it.

Just to tide you over, I’ll give you a little something else to read. A few days ago over at The Sisterhood, Nancy revisited the whole idea of listing three things that we love about ourselves. The original prompt was “When I look in the mirror, I like my _______.”

I’m really trying this year to not make it so much about the physical (how I look, the number on the scale, etc.) as much as about the mental/emotional. So I’m going to revise the prompt a little bit and list three non-physical things I like about myself.

  1. I’m pretty damn funny. Sometimes I forget this about myself. I definitely lean towards the cynical/snarky side of humor, but it makes my day when I’m able to make someone laugh.
  2. I’m fiercely loyal. I’ll be the first to admit that I’m not the greatest when it comes to fostering/nurturing relationships, but even though I may be a quiet friend, I’ll be there for you no matter what. If you need something, I will do everything I can to make things better for you.
  3. If you need help, I’m your girl. I love volunteering at school and I almost always say yes to people’s request for help. Sometimes this can get me into a bit of trouble when it comes to things that I need to do for myself, but I get a lot of satisfaction out of doing things for other people.

There you have it. What about you? What three things, physical or non-physical, do you love about yourself? Hit me up in the comments!

I LOVE ME!

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Orlando 2012 – Day 5

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Orlando 2012 – Day 4

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Orlando 2012 – Day 3

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Orlando 2012 – Day 2

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Orlando 2012 – Day 1

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Vacation eating

(Warning: Mental dump note to self type post ahead. Please excuse any and all typos, repitive thoughts, or lack of flow. Thank you.)

I will be the first to admit that when it comes to eating healthy during travel, I kind of suck at it.

I have every intention of NOT eating crap, but somehow crap always finds it way in. I go into “So what? I’m on VACATION!!” mode and suddenly anything goes.

Things that I wouldn’t have touched with a ten foot pole the week before suddenly becomes I’VEGOTTOEATITNOWANDGOAHEADANDGIVEMETWO!

But I’m bound and determined to make this time different. We’re driving down to Orlando for a week and things WILL be different. We’re packing our own food for the car so there won’t be any tempting fries at the fast food joint. I’m also not packing any candy or sweets for the road.

When we get down there, I don’t want to have fries with lunch and dinner because it’s “part of the combo”. I will do my best to really look at the menu before I order instead of just ordering the foods that are part of a combo.

We packed plenty of food to have with us in the room, too. Lots of healthier snacks, lots of fruits and vegetables, yogurt, and oatmeal for me.

I just  have to remind myself that food in Florida tastes exactly the same as food in Maryland. That cheeseburger that is calling out to me is not a special treat. I can get it anytime. I don’t need to have dessert at every meal. I can have dessert anytime.

I’m promising myself RIGHT NOW that unless it’s truly special, truly something that will be a treat, I WILL NOT EAT IT.

Having food in the shape of characters will not make me enjoy my vacation more.

Having multiple servings of fried food will not make me enjoy my vacation more.

Having “special sweets” twice a day for a week will not make me enjoy my vacation more.

Food in general will not break or break my vacation.

The end.

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Fitness Friday – The Morning Edition

I realize the title of my post sounds like a newspaper and eludes to the fact that there might be an afternoon or evening edition.

Don’t get your hopes up. I’m lucky to blog once a day, thankyouverymuch.

The Morning Edition refers to my desire to change up the way I do things in the morning. I’m ever on the quest to become a Morning Exerciser (yes, capitalized…they are like their own breed). I have tried different things and nothing has quite stuck yet.

There are countless posts and articles on the benefits of being a Morning Exerciser and how to become a Morning Exerciser. The most recent one that has stuck with me, though, is the one from MizFit. (Seriously, I’ve been reading her stuff and talking to her so much on Twitter, that I almost feel like she should be charging me for becoming my Personal Fitness Guidance Counselor.)

She’s got a vlog on her original post that you should check out, but here are her 4 steps to becoming a morning exerciser:

  1. Make the decision and tell your accountability partners (AKA friends & family).
  2. Plan and practice your workout routine.
  3. Wake up and dont workout!
  4. Go go go!

O.K. Got it. But, as always I have my own things that I struggle with that keep me from putting the plan into action. As I was walking on the treadmill yesterday, I really thought about why exercising in the morning has worked for me in the pas.  These are the roadblocks that I’ve created for myself:

  • I feel bad for working out before Dave has left for work. I feel like we don’t have oodles of time together, so that time should be reserved for  him and us. In no way has Dave made me feel bad about working out when he’s around, and he honestly would think this whole notion is just plain silly. He supports me working out whenever and whereever I can, even if that means he has to give me a kiss goodbye in the middle of a bicep curl.
  • I’m not really a morning person. It takes me a while to wake up and get myself moving. I don’t typically feel fully awake until close to 9 or 9:30, but by then all the other stuff in my life starts creeping in and the working out gets pushed to the side.
  • I hate changing clothes 3 or 4 times a day. Changing is a pain in the butt. Yes. I know. Dumb. But it’s the truth.

All of that being said, I know that I have to change my habits in 2012 (and forever, really) if I want to start seeing different results with my training, racing, and my general day-to-day well being.

So, combining Miz’s plan (ha. just realized that “Miz’s” sounds like “Mrs.”. carrying on.) with my own ways to overcome my roadblocks, here’s what I’ve come up with…

  1. Make the decision and tell your accountability partners (AKA friends & family).Um. Hey, everybody! I’m going to start working out in the morning!
  2. Plan and practice your workout routine.I plan on getting up will get up at 5:30 and get on the treadmill to walk for 1 mile. That will wake me up, without the pressure of feeling like I have to do my full workout as soon as I get up. On strength training days, I will do that workout after I walk the mile. On cardio days, the mile will be my warmup and if I have enough time and am feeling like it I can do the rest of the workout right away, or I can get the rest of it in after the kids go to school. I’ll already be in my workout clothes so they’ll be no excuses to not just do it. Oh, and I’ll sleep in my workout clothes. Literally all I’ll have to do at 5:30am is get up and walk down to the basement.
  3. Wake up and dont workout!Well, I’ve already been doing this for several weeks, LOL! I’ve been getting up at 5:30am for a month or two now. I just haven’t been working out because of this crazy “all or nothing” mentality.
  4. Go go go!Ok, ok, ok!

I’m committing to this new plan for 4 weeks. If it’s all working out (heh, get it?), then SWEET! If it’s not, I’ll take a good, hard, honest look at where I fell short and do what I can to tweak the plan.

I want to become a Morning Exerciser. I really do. I just have to find out how that title fits into my own life.

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