Point 1: I’ve been feeling quite rambly today.
Point 2: I dislike the vernacular chosen for those who are grieving. It sounds very indifferent.
“What are you doing today?”
“Oh, me? I’m just grieving my mother. You?”
“I need to go grocery shopping. Yawn.”
Point 3 (and bulk of post): I have determined that grieving is much like those first days when you bring a baby home from the hospital. You’re tired, you don’t know what the hell hit you, and everyone involved is trying to find their place and figure things out.
The term “Mommy Brain” has popped into my head on more than one occasion over the last couple of weeks. I’ll start to talk and forget what I was going to say OR ramble so much that I forget what my original point was. I’ll walk into rooms and forget what I was going to do. I’ll pick a pen and forget what I was going to right.
See, I even forget the difference between “write” and “right”.
It’s actually a bit of a relief to be able to draw on past experience to an extent. I do now what I did then: NAP.
I haven’t made a lot of time for working out. I have good intentions and then it just seems like too much. I know that it won’t always feel that way, but I also know the longer I’m inactive, the harder it will be to get active again.
I still have my grand plan of doing 13 races in 2013. My next race is in one week, and I will finish it even if I have to walk the whole thing. It’s situations like these where my lack of drive and pride serves me well. I know I will finish and I don’t really care how long it takes.
But I think it’s safe to say that for now the idea of reaching for my 2013 bigger goals through speed training and tempo runs and cross training and strength training and….
….sorry. Just typing that made me take a nap.
I’ll get back to it. I know I will, but I’m just going to take things one day at a time and see what happens.
With that in mind, I’ve come up with my March goal for myself (don’t ask about February…I’m writing February off).
At least 10 minutes of yoga every day.
Sorry, no desire to make a cute little badge. It is what it is.
So, at least 10 minutes of yoga every day will hopefully keep me active enough (even if only mindset alone) that I won’t backslide too much. Plus it’ll help with the ache and stiffness from NOT working out. Plus I really want to get back into the #YogaADay challenge.